Allow me to introduce myself:
My name is Michael Nathan Walker. I am the only son of my mother and my biological father, whose identities you don’t need to know.
I have a half-brother who I consider to be my full brother. I always have and I always will. He is genuinely one of the very best people I have ever had the privilege of knowing. We grew up together, and he is my brother.
I have another half-brother and half-sister. I met them a few times when they were little kids. I haven’t seen either of them in a long time; as far as I know they are both doing well.
I was named “Michael” because that is my biological father’s middle name.
I was named “Nathan” because that is my maternal grandfather’s middle name.
Between you, me, and the wall, I think the fact that “MNW” has a certain amount of visual appeal (flip “MNW” over and it says “MNW”) may have played a part in how I was named. My mother is an artist, though she has a day job and would not consider herself to be an “artist.”
(Between you, me, and the wall, considering oneself to be an “artist” almost always ensures that one will never produce anything that could rightly be considered “art.” But that’s only my opinion.)
My last name is “Walker” because that was my biological father’s last name. Such is custom where I live.
I never really knew the man; from all accounts he was a decent fellow.
Which, given the fact that I consider myself to be a fairly decent fellow, I suppose I consider those accounts justified.
He is dead.
To quote one of my favorite authors, who is also dead:
“So it goes.”
I had an older half-sister – I forget her birthdate – who was killed when I was a teenager. She was a real estate agent, and very involved in her church.
A man she knew from church came to her office, wanting to be shown a property in a secluded area. My older half-sister took this man to see the property.
At some point, this man attempted to rape my older half-sister. She resisted.
I barely knew her – I only met her a few times – but I attribute her resistance to…well…something genetic, I guess.
I mean, for all intents and purposes, I, Michael Nathan Walker, am a pacifist, and while I have a certain amount of, how shall I say, appreciation for the whole “turn the other cheek” thing…if and when you slap me, and if and when I turn the other cheek in anticipation of another slap, well…no intimidation intended, but you had better protect yourself.
All I know about the case – “the case,” lol – is what I have been told, and what I have read online.
She resisted, she fought this cretin off. So I was told.
Somehow or other he put her in the trunk of a car.
I do not know if this was his car or her car. I think it was the car they both rode in, when they were going to look at the property in the remote area that this fellow from my older half-sister’s church told her he wanted to look at.
She was a real estate agent, you should remember.
She also wrote various things for her church’s weekly bulletin. Poems, inspirational stuff, et cetera.
She did this anonymously.
Her husband was either a pastor or the son of a pastor. I don’t remember for sure.
I shook her husband’s hand at her funeral. That was the first and only time I met him.
She looked like Elaine from Seinfeld.
If you can believe it.
I remember being at a cafeteria (I forget the name of the place) in Pecanland Mall when I was probably fourteen or so. I had been going there fairly regularly since I was much younger, being that Pecanland Mall is only about an hour and a half away from where I grew up, and being that my maternal grandmother (whose husband’s middle name is “Nathan”) liked to buy her grandchildren things…well, I had been there a few times.
One time I made my mom cry at this mall. I called her a “cheapskate” because she wouldn’t give me any more quarters to play Mortal Kombat II.
I was quoting somebody from some movie I had seen.
And this is the sort of thing that makes me realize that I am probably much more like the fellow whose middle name was “Michael” – remember, he is dead – than I will ever fully understand.
But this one time, I was maybe fourteen, I, my mom, my maternal grandma, my brother, and I were sitting in the buffet-style cafeteria in Pecanland Mall. We had already gone down the line, picked up whatever plates of food we wanted to eat, my grandmother had already paid the cashier at the end of the buffet line, and we all (all four of us) had finished our meals.
We were sitting there in a booth – my brother and I on one side, our mom and grandmother on the other – when almost out of nowhere my older half-sister appeared. She was there with some fellow, who may or may not have been the fellow whose hand I shook at her funeral less than a decade later – and she said hello to my mom and grandma, and I sat there like a dunce unsure of what I was supposed to say, and I and my younger brother agreed that she looked a lot like Elaine from Seinfeld.
We joked about that, off and on, for a good long while.
I remember when I was really little, like less than five, I spent Christmas with the fellow whose middle name is “Michael.”
My mom was wearing a brown robe when she answered the door, and I had gotten a plastic bowling set that morning from Santa – or my mom and stepdad, whichever you prefer.
I got in this fellow’s car, and I remember it wasn’t running very well. I remember us backing up in the driveway at my mom and stepdad’s house, then turning left
I don’t remember the ride to Monroe, LA, or thereabouts.
I do remember sitting in this sorry excuse for a car, out in front of my older half-sister’s mother’s house, while the fellow whose middle name was “Michael” went to the door.
I remember looking at a fish tank, or an “aquarium” or whatever you want to call it, that was sitting in the kitchen window of my older half-sister’s house.
I remember that she got into the front passenger seat of our father’s sorry excuse for a car, and I remember that she talked to him quite a lot.
All I remember from that trip, other than what I have related, is that I got a toy version of a B-Wing spacecraft from Star Wars – the one that roughly resembles a Christian cross – and that the fellow whose middle name is now my first name was deep into some sort of fairly heated conversation with another fellow when I tried to show it to him.
I and my brother played with that toy for years afterward. Even after the fold-out wings quit folding out.
Even after they broke off entirely.
My older half-sister resisted her would-be assailant.
Or so the police report went.
And he stuffed her into the trunk of whichever car they had been riding in previously, on their trip to the property in the remote location.
And my older half-sister – the one who looked like Elaine from Seinfeld, who wrote inspirational things for her church bulletin anonymously, who – she kicked or otherwise forced the trunk open, and the car was doing about 35 mph down the road, and
and she jumped out, and when she did her head hit the pavement, and when her head hit the pavement
Long story short she died.
And I never really knew her, like on a personal level. And I shook her husband’s hand at her funeral.
Do you want to know more about me?
Politically, I am what most pundits and assorted talking heads would call a “leftist.” I don’t resent this at all, but rather than limit myself to whatever idiotic conception you may or may not have of “leftist” is, I will continue to tell you about myself:
I don’t think anyone should be prevented from doing anything that doesn’t harm others. In this sense, I am somewhat of a “libertarian.”
But I find it incredibly hypocritical when people invoke “libertarianism” as an excuse for human rights violations.
Specifically, like when corporations resist regulations that protect workers in the name of “libertarianism.”
As long as your actions are not harming anyone else, I personally do not give a crap what you do.
I believe you – whoever you are – have the right to do whatever the hell you want to do. I believe that sort of freedom should extend to every other human being (and every other sentient animal) on our planet.
I sincerely do. I support your right to be weird. I hope you fly your freak flag every day you remain alive…as long as doing so doesn’t harm anyone else.
In that sense, I am a “libertarian.” But that’s as far as my “libertarianism” goes.
I do not support people who pay scant wages to their employees.
I do not support people who run multimillion-dollar businesses who refuse to pay taxes.
I do not support the hijacking of “libertarianism” by persons who wish to restrict the freedoms of others.
Is anybody still reading?
If so, thanks.
I will (maybe) continue this later.
(Don’t hold your breath, tho, plz)
(SRSLY, you needs O2. Breeth it)